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Friday, September 14, 2007

FUCK YOU.

This is going to be hard, harsh, bad, cruel and inhuman. But whatever you say. Fuck you. As the title says means that I'm damn infuriated. Seriously, I don't understand a man can be so hurt by a two-day "relationship" and even if hurt, please don't try to hurt others by showing off your depression. Aren't you going to encourage that person to go into depression with you? I don't care that I'm going to be blunt and direct here. Do you think any pity will be shown to help your damn dispairing self? Let me tell you this, NEVER! That is only an cowardly act. Showing off that you are hurt, you are goddamn sad by this relationship and whatsoever. You are goddamn selfish! Do you think you are the only one hurt? Do you think the other party don't suffer guilt? All the more you show off your hurt, all the more guilt you inflict. Why? Aren't you a man? FACE IT ALREADY! Show that you are something more than a weakling hiding in the corner mourning that you are out of a relationship. Sorry for making it so blunt. I should have said this earlier. It may be harsh and I do hope you will wake up. You don't even deserve any pity and help when you don't even want to help yourself. Please, fucking end this misery already. What do you want me to do? Die to atone for my sins? Or what? Tell the whole world it's my fault? Fuck. Even if you are hurt, please don't flaunt it. I do get affected. I'm not playing around nor I'm treating this as a game. I deem it as a sidetrack. I guess I was lonely for too long at that point of time. I was blind or whatever you call. And I realise my mistake before it gets worse. What do you want me to do? Hate me for it? Please STOP your one-sided feelings. This is getting seriously irritating. You wanna be friends? Wishful thought aye? If you are bearing this grudge between us, do you think I still can be friends with you. Forget it man. Only if everything is settled, or should I say, your feelings are simmered then we can talk properly.

Not that I'm threatening this or what. You are mature enough to think properly as a MAN. Note the emphasis. Aren't a man nonchalant on this kinda stuff, moreover, it's so long already. If you have compassion by any chance, STOP blabbering all this shit about the past. Do you know it is posting much problems to others? Wanna suffer, you don't have to show it and make others suffer. I'm already dying from guilt. So please STOP IT. Pick yourself up and prove yourself to be better. Not sit in the corner and cry. You know what, I was glad that I did that because I hate people who are like this and I ended the agony earlier. You should have proven yourself to me that you were better and make me regret. But you know what, seeing you like this makes me feel that I was right that I ended it then. It was a good choice. If not, if it had dragged longer, it would haven been more difficult to deal with the situation.

Fuck. By any chance you read this post, I'm not least sad or anything. Plain anger. Or should I say a thread of relieve? Depression, emo., hurt etc is not an excuse. You are not mentally ill, you can control your feelings. You chose to be stuck there. Don't you wanna move on? If you don't, I want. Leave me alone with your "sufferings". I have had enough.

Lest you don't see the point of this post. I'm telling you to get up and move on. Don't build your sadness on someone else's guilt. It's your decision to be stuck there and I can only laugh at your stupidity and lack of determination if you keep on being like that. Quit being like that and prove to me. Seriously, yon don't learn. You don't even know how to fight back, lest protecting someone dear to you. Seriously, I ought to be glad huh.

1:27 PM