Wednesday, March 05, 2008
SORRY BUT I HAVE MY LIMITS
Okay, this is gonna be a shit entry as all of it will be talking about my dad. I'm really frustrated with the way he is. Really I am. No one can be any lazier than this. He took the papers and came to my face, show me the lottery tickets and ask me to check for him while I was playing Audition. I know I can be a little temperamental when I play Audition. It's not like he's blind or what and he have numerous spetacles catering to the needs of his eyes. I was like, "WHAT? WHAT? WHAT? SEE WHAT?"
"This, help me check the numbers." (And this is not the first time.)
"YOU CANNOT CHECK YOURSELF MEH?"
"I CANNOT SEE LAH! TALKING TO YOU LIKE TALKING TO SHIT, YOU ARE LIKE A DEAD PERSON INFRONT OF THE COMPUTER!" (*GLARES* at me, and the next minute, he is looking at the newspapers like he can see as NORMAL.)
WTF lahx. He can see and "cannot see' is only an excuse alright? Can anyone be more lazy than this? He is at the brink of his job, he doesn't have any income; loves to gamble and put the money on the grass for horses to trample on ; neglects his family; looks down on his daughter who goes to polytechnic studying tourism; rots at home and have no sense on how to support his family; leaves all the breadwinner job to the mother....etc... FUCK YOU! I'm really so disappointed to have this father, I'm really sorry to say this. I cannot hate you because your blood flows in me but you know, I don't feel like your daughter. Except for two things that you do fufill, that is fetch me around and packing food home for me. Other than that, I have no other impressions that is deep enough to leave me not disappointed. Actually, I'm not fit to be disppointed, but my mum does. She ought to be regretting, putting so much hopes on a man and what a failure he became. At least others have dignified, responsible and strong fathers. Not like mine, I guess it should be the other way round. I really love my mum. <3
I shall not dwell on how a failure he is, which I will have a long long long grandfather story to tell. For heaven's sake, he doesn't learn his lessons. So long already and he's at the same spot loitering. Man, I'm so appalled by the fact that my mum can bear with it for so long. I understand, it's for me but it's just as futile when she allows me to see this side of him. I'm so weak compared to mum. WHATEVER, FUCK IT!!!
8:27 AM
oanna