it's never too late to apologize. start with a sorry,end with a i love you.

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Poly life

HEHE. Poly life is fun lahx. At least I have friends, so no need to solo. Yea, am having much fun. Esp todae cuz I found real cliques aka gamers. Like same type of people lahx. Ya, but nvm. I can clique anywhere. xD jkjk. But ya, better to have more friends rights? And one more thing, I won't wanna court trouble anymore. If you know what trouble I'm referring to, cuz I can sense it coming. Ya, pray hard I won't have to deal with it unless it's those two cards I wanna bet about. Pray hard.

By the way, losers are always losers. I cannot imagine how a guy can be such a loser with no dignity. He so LOSER. Maybe I sound like a bitch, but what he did was more than what I did. He thought I SHOULD BE GUILTY ALL MY LIFE? Fat hope. If you are such a jerk, do I have to be guilty? I should be more happy to have dumped you lahx. Cuz you are such a unworthy loser. I don't care what others think about me in this post and I'm gonna blurt it all out cuz I can't stand it anymore. Fucker, why won't you just die? You think I owe you all this? You think I made your life so fucking miserable cuz I dumped you when we "stead" for 2 days? HELLO, even idiots won't care about it cuz it's like a one month thing and it have been one year already. All this whole year I have been looking and talking to such a loser, trying to encourage him and ease my guilt. But what he did was sink deeper and think I ought to owe him, and I would go back to him if he's so pathetic. =.= What a joke. You owe me efforts of talking, feelings of guilt, disturbed and disgusting emotions, $6 ticket and a $1000 handphone I lost when you were so emo. =.= Gimme all that back, as if you can. Get a life, loser.

Seriously, if you wanna be so calculative, you owe me more. Don't keep thinking that you are always the victim. I'm always the victim and I didn't have to show the world. Cuz I have dignity and I can suffer and take on all these alone. I'm not so weak like you, I can take setbacks and stand up again. I stumble but I pick myself up. You don't judge my life and you are of no rights to do that. So fuck off and go wallow in self-pity.

Pft.

8:59 AM

Sunday, April 20, 2008

=.=

Bwah. I know school just started and I'm not supposed to slack but seriously I am slacking even when I try to make myself busy. Maybe I should say that poly life is slackish. Lols. But nevermind, good start from my almost rotten holidays huh. And I shouldn't be thinking about all the emo and negative stuff, but when I see my dad and the way I got scolded when I already pushed myself so far, I just can't help it. Thanks to nette who is always there for me. Ya, after you graduate and you will know who are your besties and that's 100% true. Still, I think being in NHDS is one of the most blessed thing that happened in my life. Glad that I learned so much there. And met a great lao shi and friends as well. I <3 NHDS. =D

Now, my eyes are freakin' swollen due to excessive crying last night and extensive crying the whole week. It's like I can't sleep, I can't rest my eyes when I'm already so tired. =.= This is the illustraion of my eyes now. Smaller than the already small eyes. Blacker than the already black eyebags. I'm so tired but I can't rest well. Zzz.

Next thing is, I wanna fall in love. Like seriously, not the normal flirt, fling or whatsoever. Like a real, pure, passionate, sweet sweet love. But that is like what? Only happen in primary school?
How are you suppose to find "normal" guys like those in primary school days who are so pure and plain cute. -.- Blah. Blah. Maybe I'm just crapping but whatever.

I wanna escape from all these shit. Will you runaway with me, boy? Wipe my tears and hold my hand already.

8:40 AM

Tuesday, April 01, 2008

I'm so freakin' tired of you

There are things which I've said and done. I didn't wanna sound harsh but I did and the results, he wasn't a least bit affected. Damn it, can't he just get over it and done with? I'm sick of his small little acts. If he doesn't move on then I will have to but please, do not use those little tactics to make me guilty, or should I say, "Do you think I will come back to your side?" Wishful! I guess you are thinking too much. Haha. Do you think I will just go with you like that? Look at your pathetic self, I cannot imagine how low you can sink due to a 2 day relationship. Damn hilarious, even if you don't say it out loud, I know it. I know what you are thinking. Please, I will NEVER EVER go back to you even if it means to be a nun. Man, I'm just going to leave you loitering there if you don't wanna pick yourself up. I have to go into new relationships and don't hinder me. You are an eyesore.

12:45 PM