Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Memories
Actually, I have been thinking about how the past have affected me and I don't know why it comes back like a nightmare. Just sometimes, I feel guilty to have these nightmares. Jo, it's time to move on (nah, actually I have moved on) and erase all of those memories. It did changed you, it made you what you are today and you can't change it. You know it. But just, don't do anything silly to lose the one you wanna hold on to now. You make choices in your life, it might be a mistake and you learn from it. The mistake might be for short term but it affects you from then on till your life ends because it happened. You also make correct choices in your life, if you know it is correct, then hold on to it, uphold and behold it until one day when it leaves. There's nothing much to do except creating beautiful memories and cherishing what you chose. I really hope it will last.
Jo, you know you are reliving it because you are going to forget about it soon. It's just like a drug, you need to go through it again to show that you are over it. I guess the one last thing I need to go through is to see him again. Once that is over, it's really over. But you need fate to allow you to see him again though. Kinda funny. I just wanna know how he is doing and perhaps, just show him that I'm surviving well now. At least I learnt my lesson, scored relatively okay and went to somewhere due to fate. Am currently taking a different module trying hard to score my AD. xD
I'm sorry for being the way I am. I'm trying hard to leave all of those nightmares behind. However, it did make part of me today. So ya, it's contradicting. I will try to modify it as much as possible. Just like a car accident, you get scars; it will fade but it remains. You get repercussion; it haunts but it can be overcomed. It's the healing process now. The scars faded, and I need you to help me get over the repercussion. At least I found someone whom I regard as the Skye I am looking for. I still remember the times when I stupidly fooled around just trying desperately to find a soul whom I can relate to. In the end, I hurt another person. My bad okays? Really. It's an after effect. A vicious cycle. Oh I like that word. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. HEY, I learn from Geography okays. Human geog., my favourite. I miss my days in Nan Hua Dance Society. =D I shouldn't say I miss my secondary school days because it is kinda typical, weird and you-know-it. =) Yea, nothing much to reminisce too. Haha, secondary school is important. It makes you, shapes you and decides your future. So, I'm bringing my children overseas to study ya? Don't ask where I get the money to migrate and that apartment at Dhoby. It's a secret. 'Cuz someone have to rob the bank for that. xD
I must thank the one above for everything that happened to me. Be it bad or good, because you need the bad to realise the good. Thanks for blessing me alrights? =) ilovemyboy <3
12:04 AM
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