Thursday, March 26, 2009
To LXE
=) Thanks oldie. xD You can just spam cuz no one will tag also, and I don't want it to expire. =X It has been a long time, not really that long though but enough to make us all drift apart. Be it work, studies and life. Are you talking about me? Haha, okay that was random cuz I just saw your blog. I still thought it was thegreydistrict that one can. =.= I typed this post because I don't know which post to comment on and what I wanna type might be too long. Haha. I noob can.
Yea, life as it seems. You know it, we know it, everyone else knows it. Just carry on with courage and never run away from reality. Cherish all those people that appear in your life alrights! Though some might have retreated but at least they played an important role once in your life. We do change and it's because of the environment and our mindset as well. =) I will miss the times we shared in NHHS. All those stupid but funny moments. You know, it's nice to have all these memories. Though now we have to carry on a new journey in life. JYJY for A's okays, meet you in unversity soon. I hope I can see you at the door, cuz my GPA jialat.
Once again, thanks oldie. =D
9:12 PM
Reflections
Jo's growing everyday. =) Don't take it physically alrights. Yea, I have grown up, from reading my first blog post to the current one. I did change a lot. There's a lot more to learn. Now I know what caused me to change and such. There's nothing to say but just learn my lesson. I'm not the girl who will type in uber Singlish and act cute all the way anymore with additional random rants about daily life. I am also not the girl who will use my sarcastic self with improved English to shoot in certain circumstances. I know when did I started it okays, it was when I was criticised for my bad English and he had to force me to scold him via such a sarcastic way. Though now I still have some of the traits but this time I'm really going to tone down and evolve to a new Jo.
Yea, actually there are some things that I know it myself. Sorry that I chose to ignore it. I hope I will improve this time. If I don't, just leave me as it is. Cuz I'm not worthy. Gwah. Life as it seems. Miss Nette~~ >.< I want to go eat my expensive pastry again at Paragon. T.T Hey, I really wanna enjoy life naaa. Cuz I don't know when I will be sad again. =X Take me away. <3 Nitex!
12:46 PM
Jo here =)
Hey, I find it interesting to read my first blog. =) To gain myself back and also, I realised I love basketball cuz of TTS. xD I didn't use that name for a long time already. Nah, not missing him or anything. Just that Jo, you have been losing yourself now and then. Are you changing? I bet you are, as you can see from all your blog posts. Learn Jo. Kaes, I go bathe liao. Hehe, so long time never talk in this manner. I miss ndp okaes! <3
1:21 AM
Monday, March 23, 2009
dun sia lan hor jolim
hey idiot, u duno who write this do u ? =X
4:54 AM
Sunday, March 22, 2009
8:59 AM
Surprise!
Aites aites, now my boy knows how to blog already. As you can see right below this post. ^^ He's cute. xD
8:53 AM
Fairy tale
Hey people, it's been a long time since I updated my blog. I'm pretty busy with loads of work and such. Argh. Speaking about studies, it just makes my blood boil, cuz I'm kinda disappointed in myself. I need to have a good time management to juggle between my mum, my boy, dance competition and studies. I really need to focus on my studies as I want to enter local university. Reality is practical; who wouldn't want a secured job with a secured income.The world outside is not easy, without money, you can't possibly survive alone. That's why I have high expectations of myself. Jiayous Jo! I believe you can do it! Yea, and besides studies, countless incidents had happened this month. I should consider it a blessing, I do believe that happiness wouldn't last forever. However, I am glad that its been with me for quite some time, the feeling of happiness just gather in a cirlce and continuously rotate around me all the time.
My boy; thanks for always being there with me. Everything you do just makes me laugh, giggle and happy. I really want to be with you always, though we need to go through a ot of obstacles. I believe that if the both of us are willing to tackle the problem together, everything will be solved.
I am still waiting for that house at Doby alrights! By hook or crook okay. =D Though I often feel that I am not the type of girl you always wanted but deep down, I know you have fall for me deeply and nothing could change that. Jo will <3 you always.
Eventually, we will grow and change, we will grow into a mature middle-aged citizen who will then have to raise children and talk about financial stuff. Its just part and parcel of life, I have to be prepared that life is short and soon after I hit 30, I am holding a child in my arms. Life is really short to be anyone esle but yourself, jiayous!
7:10 AM
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Random
Alrights, just some random post. Just because I'm bored and sick with life. =X Not really but yea, I do get disappointed why there's such a side in life that I have to endure with. It's just pathetic. Let's all be truthful and cut away all those unnecessary emotions. Be frank and straight, then everything gets better cuz we know what's happening. Gwah, whatever. Like I say anything will help the situation better. This is just one side of it. Jo, look forward. Hope for the best, expect the worse. I wanna migrate, I wanna run away and hope it gets better. I know it's wishful thinking, but at least let me be wishful ya?
I will always love my boy. =) There might be times I really doubt myself, but at the end of the day everything gets solved. Yea, it's a learning experience everytime. We grow and change together and hopefully, we become individuals who are able to lead and live well. =) Then we proceed on to inspire more. Like girl to woman and to mother then to grandmother. Lile boy to man and to father then to grandfather. I hope we will see each other through the end, and at the end of the day, it's you I'm with. 多少恋人不费唇舌，在一起却说服彼此不适合。I heard that from Fish Leong's songs, her songs are damn inspiring. Be it for wholehearted or the brokenhearted, it teaches you something. Yea, I know love songs are influential and can control your emotions. I don't deny I am being controlled sometimes, but I do get a hold of myself. =)
No worries, I'm prepared for world end. Let's just all die. It's going to be eventful. ^^
9:56 AM
Sunday, March 08, 2009
Thankful
Count your blessings. That's something I always need to remind myself. Though life might be harsh sometimes, there are people you just need to cherish before they retreat from your life and go into someone else's. Be thankful. =) Thanks mum. Thanks my boy. Thanks nette. I love yous! xD I wanna go back to secondary school days. Aha. Childish but simple. Life can be simple as long as I don't think so much. Because trouble comes from within yourself. =D I love to laugh at stupid stuff. It's fun. Life's simple stuff can make it interesting. Thanks for everything. Losses makes you realise the importance of cherishing something. It's just life.
9:16 PM
Wednesday, March 04, 2009
The dumbass. =)
Heyhey, after so long of disappearance and I am finally back! Heh, actually I didn't disappear very long, just that eveything is still packed though not busy and stressed at the moment. Work is pathetic, everywhere is cutting costs and I am lucky to be hired back in Pepper Lunch, as usual, but with a lesser workload. Count me lucky for the moment.
Then again, due to the ability to slack and space out alone, it's kinda fun to ponder about life and stuff. Yea, as a typical Aquarian, this is what I love to do. I was wondering when I can ever attain that kind of enlightenment and tranquility in my life. When can I go to a place call home, though I might be alone, and just wander the streets while being absorbed into the big big world I am in. I don't mind if I live in a rural area and I have to travel by foot every now and then. I just want to enjoy life with freedom and peace. I guess everyone else would like to have such a life, who wouldn't? I don't think it's fun to rush around everyday just to earn that few bucks and life is just so dull. It's not boring, but just not the kind of satisfaction I wish to attain. As I grow up, I came to realise there are things and dreams you have to give up just to suit the crowd and succumb to reality. Yea, it's all the norm. Apathetic and stereotypical. Yet again, some declaration, I ain't no saint. So, I just like to post stupid questions that is like so =.=
One more thing, it's sad to have family falling apart. So do cherish what you have now, cuz you don't know when it will be shattered. It's not that this is unusual, as someone of the later generation, there's nothing we can do. Other than accepting the fact, do you think crying, talking, shouting or even silence will help? I suppose ignorance is the best thing to do. Close both eyes, shut your ears and cut off all connection. That way, hurt won't knock at your door so fast. It might be deemed as running away, but other that this way, nothing can be done and this is the best solution. It's worst to be the only one shouldering all these shit but what's there to be done when everything is done? I just hope that I can give a better situation for my family next time. There's no point brooding over it. It's not optimism. It's just life.
And then again, life as it seems. My famous saying I love to use since secondary two. =) Life as it seems. It's just like a story. I am a bad person, I bear the sinful thoughts, I have killed a thing or two or more, I couldn't be the perfect person, I am not able to meet all expectations, I am unable to help at times, I am emotional, I am stupid and idiotic, I give sarcastic remarks when I think something is ridiculous, I have expectations for others but I forgot mine, I am lazy, I am irresponsible and I am everything I am. This is me as a human. I admit that I have mistakes but I am not unreasonable. Just that I don't like to be maligned and I cannot even defend myself. Worse still, I have to be judged by people whom I don't even give a damn. It's just not fair to be judged by people who don't even know you. Gah. All these shit. Is it me that is weird or the world's weird? It's me right? Well, whatever.
Hope. I hope that the world will end sooner. Then I will have a reason to die without being punished. How long are we going to take to end this idiot's parade (Recall: Money talks, that's what idiots will say, but you will find out that this world is an idiot's parade.)? Good Charlotte. I love them. =) Yea, let me end all these shit and I wanna rest in peace. It's not a suicidal note. Fret not, you won't find my picture in the obituary so soon. I still have to pay all the debts I owe to mum before I can die and I have to fulfill all the promises I made before finally saying goodbye. Life is still long ahead, I know I have a lot of things not done, not that I don't wish to do them. Just that, life is tiring. Sometimes, I get so tired that I only though of resting in peace. Insomnia is not helping at all. Death might be the best permanent solution. But hell no I am going to do that. Say say only, why so serious? xD Hope. I wish to carry hope in myself and always look on the better side. Okay, at least neutral side can? Hope for the best, expect the worst. Perfect solution. Let's hope.
Love. I wish I can believe in it forever and ever. After my first taste of it when I was 15, I got so crazy, devastated and hurt. It wasn't long and wasn't much but was enough to change my life. =) I wished I could erase it with a eraser, but there's no way to deny it. Even this blog was created for it. Yea, I wanted to face reality and carry on living with it because past is what make us today. It's part and parcel of our life. I just finally understood the meaning of love this time. That time, it was only a one-sided love. It was love. This time, it is a mutual love. It is love. Love come in many forms, and many a time, it's just too insignificant that we miss it by chance. So now, if anyone is in it, try to catch it and cherish it alrights? I will too. Though, you know, first love is always different from others. Or rather, every love is different. Do you notice, everytime you love, it comes with a different value, perception and reaction. Just because you have more experience, you know what to do? Nah, it's not experience. It's just, you are giving love to a different person and thus, the difference. Yea, now then I understand it. Experience might give you knowledge on how to react to the opposite sex but doesn't teach you how to love that one person. It's you who give that special love to that special someone. It doesn't matter who loves who more. You know why? Because love is indispensable, and if someone is either dispensable of you or for you, it just means that it's not love and both of you just don't love each other. Love cannot be measured. If it's measurable, it's not love. Because love know no bounds. It does not come with a definition when two is in it. <3
Enough for today, I shall go rest for tomorrow. Work and dance. Gwah.
8:26 AM
oanna